so tired..
dun feels like waking up today..
i brushed my teeth with my eyes close..
forced myself to work today..
hmm..
bus no aircon today..
those cool air was great..
brought these unsaid feeling back onto mi..


YTD NIGHT

lost..
thumbs injured..
mouth kanna elbow..
lost my temper..
flared up..


missed 2fastbreaks.
2 travelling foul called..
5air balls..
i sucks can..
damn angry with myself..
after the match, i punished myself..
i kept doing push ups till my hand no strenght..
arggggggggg!!!
even though i scored 12, but fuck...


at 1moment, i nearly wanted to punched e wall so hard..
i wanted to punch e wall with my utmost strength..
i wanted to vent my frustration out!!!..
but i managed to control my temper..
i didnt do anything to hurt myself in e end..
hmmm...
i tried hard to control my temper le.. it is getting better??


after e match, frends drove us to s-11 at amk for dinner..
frend's treat sia..
fishhead steamboat, spareribs, foo yong egg, cuttlefish kangkong..
chicken wings 20pcs..
8 person finsihed e whole chunk of food..
but i ate alot lor..
2bowls of rice..great helpings on e dishes..
4pcs of chiken wings = 4wings + 4drumlets..
haha...


after tat, drove gordan home..
on e way home, he n jiansheng keep disturbing lor..
but it's fun la..
"arbo zheng yang"...
keep luffing non stop inside e car la..


i feel so sad at e defeat can..
so no morale..
nvmm.. looks forward to e next match..
gonna lose no more..
but win..
tampines east, bishan east, all come..
i awaits all...



Do what you can,
with what you have,
where you are.


this seems so true..