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Sunday, March 05, 2006

yeah!! won NUS by 20+ points.. tat a good news.. haha.. played 3 won 3.. not so bad... still got 13 games to play.. can win all?? lols... get to played most of e time.. ard 70% of the time i m in e court.. that a good ting... good game though...

after that went to hongwei bday celebration.. played bball.. even thoug i know i needed rest, but i wan to keep myself occupied, cos i dun wan to think too much.. thinking kills mi most of e time.. sometimes playing ball is a way to make myself seem distant from my worries.. played i was dead tired.. then she came, with her bf.. damn sad lor, but bo bian.. haha.. dennis came not long after tat, so long nv see him le.. got quite alot of things to catch up with him.,. poured out some things to him.. haiz.. we are sharing e same fate??
went for a bath n gathered inside hongwei chalet, chit chat, talk cock all these... then they played a game called" sleep" n off i go to my own chalet... was a drinking session there.. my brother couldnot get hard liqour, instead bougth 8 bottles of carlsberg.. played 5 10.. so enjoying.. drank alot.. i thnk ard 2plus to 3 bottles.. nearly wanted to vomit.. abit drunk.. haiz.. y nv drunk leh.. wash away all my sorrows.. whoel night nv slp, played till 6 plus in e morning.. then went to e beach.. sit at e shore, staring a e sea.. looking at e sea, suddenly feels so peaceful inside mi.. but was for a short time onli.. alot of things were going thru my mind at tat time..
i m thiniking of leaving her, i dun wan to make her feel confused n havemixed feelings.. but i cant bear to let go.. so scare n "bu she de"... but i wan her to be happy..
slpt at 7 plus, woke up at 12plus.. then msged her.. not enff slp sia.. lucky dun have hangover..but nv have i had any hangover b4, so dunno wat e feeling will be like..
told her about e things that is running in my mind.. n she told her feelings too.. was abit disappointed lah.. so somewhere still able to take it.. at a point, tears stormed my eyes.. heart break... nvm..

since u have said that, i have decided not to leave u..

then and now; 11:42 PM